I know that you're feeling TOO much right now; it's too much for any human heart to handle. All I can tell you is that it's normal. It doesn't make sense, that's what makes you feel like you know nothing. It hit you too quickly and too hard.

There's also nothing you can, or SHOULD, do to "get over it" or "get through it"--you're getting through it now. And frankly, I think you're functioning just fine. xoxoxoxoxox